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  • 30 Day Challenge

    (I decided to take of beebizzle's 30 Day Challenge. I doubt I will finish it, but then again that's ok! This one is probably going to be atrociously written thanks to all the wonderful meds I am on. I don't even know what day it is haha.)

    Dear Best Friend,

    I don't remember the exact day or circumstances in which we got to know each other. You DJ'd a lot for "that dance thing" and I remember seeing you in other social circles I sometimes sat on the outside of. I do remember the first time I realized that your brother (who was best friends with my boyfriend-at-the-time's brother.) It was New Year's Eve and when my boyfriend and I came in he recognized you, and that's when I made the connection.
    It was a couple years later when a mutual friend came up with the idea of going to NYC together, since you had family up there. The drive up there was insane, we couldn't hardly see! And then there was that time you almost hit a bus head on while trying to pass another bus. I won't ever forget that!
    We shared the tiny room upstairs at your grandparents house. I loved their house. It was so small but filled with so many lovely memories. You could see the love everywhere. And your grandparents were so SMALL! I wanted to pick up your grandma so bad sometimes. I mean, I'm only 5'5" and I still had to bend over to hug her. And your grandpa had the greatest Italian accent. After that weekend, I secretly wished I could have been adopted by your grandparents. They were so cool.
    Then there was your birthday! The first time I ever had alcohol, haha I was so afraid I was going to get in trouble, even though I only had a very small amount of champagne. I met your older sister at your party. I liked her independent spirit and how she embraced feminine power. I liked talking with both of you all through the night.
    We've been through so many similar things in our lives; you've been a great source of encouragement and support. One of my favourite nights at your house was Valentine's Day and Adam and I came over and we watched The Office and trash-talked our ex's allll night long, and then went shopping the next day. I wished I had listened to you more when it came to break-ups. I know I only caused myself more pain, and I know you'd get mad when I didn't listen, but you also understood that sometimes a person just needs to be a total butthead and make themselves miserable anyways even after you've done all you can.
    But the best part of all this, is how we became a family. It still blows my mind because I never in a million years would ever think something like this would happen. Who would've thought that our parents would have met randomly and then discover that their kids had been friends for going on 6 years. I know we were both mad as hell at the situation at first. It's true, our parents were being incredibly stupid. They got engaged practically just a few weeks after they met each other and my mom's divorce wasn't even final yet, and then got married just weeks after it was final. We both threatened not to go to the wedding and spent nights at my house with J. complaining the whoooole night. Haha J. didn't know what to do or say so she just sat there silently.
    Apparently one really should be careful what they wish for because I had a fleeting thought about how cool it would be to be adopted by your grandparents and then 3 years later that exact thing happened. You're one of the few people from my past that I still want to stay connected to. I'm so glad that it was your dad that my mom ended up marrying instead of some other people's dads I know haha.
    It's been a wild ride since I met you. You've been there through douchebags and breakups to moves and marriages and rebellion. You're my sounding board when I just need to vent and you always give me a new perspective to view things through.
    You're the best friend, fellow Zim enthusiast, AND stepsister (which is probably the coolest thing of all.)

    Day 1 - Your best friend
    Day 2 — Your Crush
    Day 3 — Your parents
    Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
    Day 5 — Your dreams
    Day 6 — A stranger
    Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
    Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
    Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
    Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
    Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
    Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
    Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
    Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
    Day 15 — The person you miss the most
    Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
    Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
    Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
    Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
    Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
    Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
    Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
    Day 23 — The last person you kissed
    Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
    Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
    Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
    Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
    Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
    Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
    Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

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    My little Wedge Antilles. His mane is getting so long!!!

  • I can't quite place my finger on it, but something is off. It's like something stretched too far and snapped. It's like I went to bed and everything was normal, but in the morning something was different.
    It's like a canyon separates us; wide, fathomless.

    Can you feel it too?

  • I really don't think my manager likes me. She tells me to come in and puts me in the schedule, and then when I show up tells me to go home because there are too many people on the clock.
    This has happened twice after I asked her the other day for more hours because I am LITERALLY living out of a change jar since my account is at $0.
    Then she has me come in to learn a new task, and instead of having me do that tasks, hands it off to the other newbie and tells me to do stuff I already know (If I came in to do THAT specific task, and then you don't have me do it, why am I still here?!?!)
    She is also withholding the uniform I am supposed to be wearing from me. She told me it has arrived, and then said she just wasn't going to give it to me yet (while other people get theirs).

    I really like working there, I like the people, I like interacting with the customers. I just feel uncomfortable around my manager because she is always belittling me, and practically calling me a liar. Now, she has never corrected anything I do because I pay attention and do it right.

    And she still isn't giving me any hours.

    In good news, I am waiting to hear back from a bangin' townhouse place for approval on a lease, and Gamestop called me in for an interview and said they really want me back (and since it is a conflict of interest with Best Buy so I can't work both, they said they will try to start me off at a higher pay grade and will also guarantee me more hours than I've been getting at BBY; though it ain't hard to beat 4hrs a week.)

    I think we know what's going to happen here :P Gamestop was my dream job.
    Oh, and I can walk to it from my new place (ad it's only 3 miles from where I'm at now) so no more 40 min gas consuming commute.

  • I wonder how long this calm will last, and if this tension is something real or just something I'm imagining.
    Is this calm the oasis I've been searching for? Or is it just another break in the storm; the eye of a hurricane passing over?
    I worry too much, that's for sure.

    I'm just going to ride out this high as long as I can. I'm loving coming home at night and immediately being swept up in a big hug and being twirled around as I'm smothered in kisses. I love being happy! I'm just afraid of it all falling apart. Money is tight, but we've never been happier. We've had our fancy dates, and our shopping trips for some of the finer things in this life. The time for that is over now, and it's ok. Now it's back to working as much as possible (which is a little hard for me when BOTH my jobs haven't given me hours this week and Best Buy didn't schedule me at all last week. :( oh well.)

    I don't know how I got so lucky. Makes me kinda sad when I hear/read about other's relationship woes and I have nothing but happy things in mine. I can't imagine a life with him in it. He's everything I ever wanted and much, much more.

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    Our first family photo!

    Happy Easter :)

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    This amazing insight to dwell on was brought to you by: Wedge.

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    Our newest addition!
    Wedge Antilles.

    Isn't he the CUTEST?

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    :D

  • I survived my first week at Best Buy! It was a frustrating week overall, but I am still really glad I work there. Everyone is so nice, and it's basically the first time I've started a new job and wasn't completely nervous as I went into training! Besides the fact that I know very little about cell phones in general, I think I'm catching on pretty well.

    The downside to working all the time is spending less time with Reid. I know this is just a part of normal life, but gotta remember, for the past 6-7 months we've basically spent 24/7 with each other since we were both either jobless or working very, very little. I whine a bit whenever I get home from work and he is just leaving. But he has been super supportive and proactive in making sure that when we do have coinciding hours of free time that we get quality time together.
    He even took me out on another fancy date! It was a lot of fun, and overall being apart just makes me appreciate him more and the time we spend together just that more awesome.

    School is wrapping up. I'm a little behind but I know if I really applied myself I can catch back up. It's just hard after working all day coming home and doing homework I am definitely not interested in. Once I'm in classes I care about I know this part will be easier, sorta. I've always had trouble balancing work and school. It's never worked out for me, but I'm ready to change that.

    Overall, life is good.

    I can't believe I can actually say that again!

  • ABC

    A. Age: 22

    B. Bed size: Queen

    C. Chore you hate: Cleaning dishes, I wish I liked it more, that way I would have more to eat on/with.

    D. Dogs: Brittany/Lab mix who lives with my mom, and one day I will own a corgi! I will!!

    E. Essential start to your day: Changing out of PJ's. I am not one to lounge about in them all day.

    F. Favorite color: Orange always has been, always will be.

    G. Gold or silver: Silver

    H. Height: 5'4"

    I. Instruments: None, but I want to learn to play an electric bass

    J. Job title: Impact Team Member and also Mobile Sales Associate

    K. Kids: One day...

    L. Live: The armpit of VA

    M. Mom’s name: Rebecca

    N. Nicknames: Faints

    O. Overnight hospital stays: None that I can remember...

    P. Pet peeve: When people call me MEgan *RAGE*

    Q. Quote from a movie: "Mr. Rat, I have a writ here says you're to stop eating Chen Lee's cornmeal forthwith. Now it's a rat writ, writ for a rat, and this is lawful service of the same. See? Doesn't pay any attention to me." *bang*

    R. Right or left handed: Both

    S. Siblings: "Sister for sale, sister for sale, one crying, spying, young sister for sale."

    T. Time you wake up: In time to make it to where ever I need to be.

    U. Underwear: The normal kind?

    V. Vegetables you dislike: Basically all raw veggies now that they cause a reaction that makes me almost unable to breathe.

    W. What makes you run late: When my alarm clock doesn't go off (like last weekend!)

    X. X-Rays you’ve had: Teeth, head, chest, knee, hand... I think that might be all?

    Y. Yummy food you make: Apparently my muffins are awesome.

    Z. Zoo- favorite animal: Prehensile-tailed porcupines! As well as otters, foxes, and wolves.